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Finding Balance

Tue Aug 24, 2010

It’s been a long, long time since I’ve written here, and it’s not without some regret. Friendships that evolved out of writing seem as strained as my attempts at prose. Great meals go undocumented. New recipes go unshared. Without SpicySaltySweet I’ve felt a little lost.

But the feeling is generally fleeting, like the bitter, tannic impression of a tight, young wine on the tongue that fades as the wine opens and the fruit comes to the fore. I stopped writing here because my life was ridiculously out of balance, and it was taking a toll on my health in the most obvious way. Every meal I ate tied my intestines into knots until my insides felt like macrame. I had no energy. I got migraines. My whole body was tense. And I cried. A lot. Something had to give.

Actually, a lot had to give. So I pared my life down to the minimum. I focused on my 40-hour a week job as the writer and editor for K&L Wine Merchants, started getting regular exercise again, and I began seeing a hypnotist to learn how to manage the stress and the emotional weight of being a food and wine writer with a digestive disorder.

I told myself, when I felt better I would write again. And when I did finally feel better, around the turn of the year, I couldn’t do it. I told myself I would practice living a more balanced life, and if there was room for the extra work I would write. But there was never anything leftover. I was getting ready for my wedding, I was on my honeymoon, I was recovering from my honeymoon. I was gardening. I was traveling for work, for play. I was living and loving it, but there wasn’t anything left for my blog.

And there still isn’t, I’m sad to say. But I am writing. And I would love your support. So if you’ve enjoyed my writing over the past few years, please visit the K&L blog. I’ve been having a blast interviewing winemakers, teaching myself how to edit video (and getting paid for all of it) and I even plan to work in some recipes of my own and my friends, and I’m having fun. And who knows, maybe with a little more time, and a little more practice at this balance thing, there will be a place for me as SpicySaltySweet. Until then…

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9 Responses to “Finding Balance”

  1. Surya Botofasina Says:

    The openess, the honesty, the clarity with such weaving words… I would like to thank you for sharing aspects of your journey. Life is a such beautiful labor of love. So with all positivity, I give my word to always hold your journey and prose, near to my life. Enjoy the spirits!

  2. Diana Says:

    A creative person is never limited to a specific material. That was the best lesson I’ve learned. When there wasn’t inspiration to draw…I played with clay….when I didn’t have clay…..somehow I started writing again. And when I don’t feel like doing any of the three I suppose my life is it’s own art. So whatever you do….remember that your life is art too and that you are that original and unique story that we long to hear about. Love you and if you take a look over to the right….and you peruse all the dates and topics…you might find that there is a season for everything….making wine, choosing fruits and vegetables….and even blogging.


  3. Ramon Says:

    I for the record look at your sss blog for recipes from time to time and love that there are here for us all to share and explore! Having gone through artistic blocks myself, just remember to be patient and know that we are all in your corner rooting you on. We’ll read whatever you have to offer whenever that is.



  4. Brooke@foodwoolf Says:

    Lucky for me, even though I haven’t been able to find you here on this site, I’ve been able to cherish REAL FACE TIME with my good friend and cherish your words about wine over at K&L.

    Truth be told, I’m sad to see Salty Spicy Sweet take a powder, but all the free time it’s pause has given you has made you thrive. Your smiling, healthy, are flourishing as a writer somewhere else, and have Tina Turner arms. Not a bad thing, lady!

    K&L is lucky to have you. And I’m lucky to have you–any way I can get you!

  5. stephen Says:

    as a chef in SF for the past 15 years I certainly can understand what you have been going through.
    Placing expectations on yourself can be damaging.
    I think you hit the nail on the head though. Exercise, spending time w friends and making more YOU time is so vital. Outside focus can be so personally draining.
    I think taking a few steps back every so often is good. so is spending a couple weeks on the beach in Mexico! 🙂
    Ps. big fan of K@L. our biz does a heap of biz with you all.
    I’ll be back.

  6. Phyllis Ehrenman Says:

    Soooooooooooo sorry to hear that things have been so topsy turvy for you. Please update me. If I can make a difference for you it would give me pleasure.

  7. absolutebestwines Says:

    I have to say I tried to put myself in your shoes…and didn’t like it much. But it sounds like you are busy, in love, and still writing great posts! I am new to this blog (just love it) and hope to see you here more often in the future.

  8. groundhog.judy Says:

    Having ups and downs just seems to go with everyday life. I know mine are not corrected by medication but self-determination analysis of what is wrong with me today. Sometimes it seems as if my body is out of whack. Diet and exercise always helps along with reflections on what I have done and where am I going. I try to keep the future expectations in the near future to not be overwhelmed. I think we all find ourselves looking for remedies.

  9. Kelly Says:

    I appreciated this post a great deal, as I have had many of the same thoughts lately. Good luck with balancing it all out. It is never as simple as it sounds. Take care of yourself.

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